Learning how to relax and enjoy it!

I 'm having a hard time not working. I am staying in a town with less than 4,000 people so work is thin on the ground here. What I really want is cash-in-hand work that will give me the freedom to visit my Dad in NY and my best friend in LA over the next couple months. As my funds are dwindling I grow worried about money and my future. I try and remind myself that this journey is a break from my life in London with a view to a possible future in America. Whilst I want to relax and enjoy the adventure, I am not used to not working and not having a routine. So the resume (CV) is being updated and I am hitting the town in search of work first thing next week. I am not fussy about what, I just need to use my brain and earn some money!

Monday I had the fly shot, kindly bought for me by my aunt as I have no health care ($30.) That should protect me from possible bugs as the weather has grown cold ready for the winter ahead. My dodgy eye has not healed and I was becoming more concerned by the day. I went to the local eye doctor in town and decided to bite the bullet and pay $55 for the consultation to get a proper diagnosis. The doctor smiled and said I had a blocked oil gland in my eye lid and there was nothing to worry about. He advised me of some medicine to buy and said hot compresses will do the trick until the gland .... (wait for it).... bursts. (Gross.) When I went to pay for the visit he said, "As you are used to socialized medicine over in England I am going to treat you the same way. There is no charge." He was a very nice man and took pity on my situation and I thank him for it!I have always found it hard to live in the moment and not in the future. One of the reasons I am here is to really think about what makes me 'truly happy' so it's natural for me to be worried about my future, money and what country I want to live in. After speaking to a dear friend back in London this evening I feel much better. She encouraged me to enjoy myself and not beat myself up. So that's what I am going to do - starting with being productive to make money to fund the fun!Music I am currently listening to: None. I am watching the American version of 'What not to Wear' on TV